It's December.
The year seems to have gone by in a flash, and yet with the pace of a snail. Some days I remember vividly like it was just yesterday, others I wish I could completely forget.
It's also been the year of changes. The biggest one being, of course, leaving school and entering the workforce. After 16 years of being stuck in an education system that has at times both satisfied and pissed the hell out of me, I've left to see if these 16 years have given me any value in the "real" world.
This might sound like the start of an angry protest of the education system we've been stuck with, but it's not. Quite frankly, some of what school has taught has helped. And I don't just mean the technical stuff like learning how to do a spreadsheet on Microsoft Excel (which I have become quite adept at, I am rather proud to say).
But while I am grateful for having all these years of education under my belt, I know that I have been extremely blessed and fortunate to have found myself where I am right now. Especially so, considering that just five months ago, my choices were on a knife's edge that could have gone either way. If it hadn't been for three people who told me to just wait it out, I could be in a very different place right now, literally.
I don't know if they knew how conflicted I'd been then, or if they know just how much their text messages meant. Or spending hours talking to me on the phone. Or just letting me sit in the car with the engine running to talk it all out. Or, really, just being there for me through it all.
And it makes me so, so happy to say that I haven't regretted the decision I made at all, even during the long days with crazy stuff happening all over. The drained, exhausted resignation that I used to feel seems like a thing of the past. I don't wake up dreading the day, and I don't end it wishing for it to be over.
And for that, I will always be grateful to have the three of you in my life. So. Thank you. :)
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